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bat shit crazy November 3, 2009

Filed under: codependency,Random — uncreativeblogger @ 11:23
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I’ve got so much crap flying through my head right now I can’t put together a coherent thought.

I started taking my crazy pills last night.  I haven’t told anyone about it.  My family would make fun of me and after J’s reaction the other night, I don’t want to tell him either.  I hope it helps.

It’s a beautiful day here in the south, I just wish I wasn’t at work.  The boss man is a jerk and has a way of taking it out on everyone around him, especially me.

 

I really wish I had something funny and entertaining to share, but I’m just not in the entertaining sharing mood.  Why the fuck am I doing this then???

 

Later

 

 

 

Monday Mind Dump November 2, 2009

Filed under: mind dump,Random — uncreativeblogger @ 17:23
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Here’s just a few of the fleeting thoughts going through my head on this beautiful sunny Monday in the South….

 

I called my Dr. on lunch wanting something to get me over my hump.  She doesn’t prescribe valium or xanex or anything like that, and instead has prescibed me zoloft.  I’ve mixed feelings about this.  While i don’t want anything long term screwing with my head, I just want something that will get me through the bad days; I also understand the long term problems that come with a quick fix like valium or xanex.  I just hope I don’t gain weight.

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I haven’t done a DAMN thing today at work, seriously.  I’m so caught up in my worries that i can’t concentrate on a damn thing.

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My mother mentioned Thanksgiving Dinner…. even family events make me a nervous wreck.  And we all get a long just fine.  I just don’t like to talk to them.

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I have sex with my vibrator more than I do my boyfriend.  we’ve been together less than a year. While I like sex, I find that every time we do, i stress out until i start again.

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I wish i didn’t have so much running through my head so I could actually enjoy myself and see the humor in everyday life.  It’s the little things and I can’t get past the big things to see them.  All I really want to do is laugh.

 

the start of something not so special…. October 14, 2009

Filed under: Random — uncreativeblogger @ 16:45

I had another blog at one time, but family found out about it, so there went my freedom to actually blow shit out of my head into the interweb without fear of my elderly parents finding out.

So, I’m starting this new blog.  You will most likely not find anything remotely insightful or amusing.  Then again, I CAN be funny when I don’t edit myself, but I’m all about the self editing, in person anyway.  It’s something I really need to change about myself.  As a warning, you ARE likely to find bad grammar and misspelled words – public education in the south sucks.

I do have a lot that I need to get off my chest, but I have NO idea where to start.  The things in my life right now that need working on/talked about/screamed about/psychoanalyzed are my need/desire to loose the 12lbs. I’ve gained over the last year with my BF W.  The relationship with my BF W. My desperate need to find God/Jesus again.  Ongoing battle to find time to spend with my friends.  These are just a few of the wonderful things.  And I have no idea where to start.